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I am feeling overwhelmed on so many fronts. I'm not one to complain, but I am feeling so very alone. My family is struggling financially as we are living off my husband's disability check and I am desperately fighting for my SSI. I had doctor appointments that possibly would have expedited my case, but due to the Covid 19 crisis, it will be months before I get to see a neurologist. I live in constant neck and arm pain and have become so frustrated. I will never get better, a bitter pill to swallow, yet I'm thankful that I have a home and food to eat and a loving family. Bless each and every one of you and I thank you with all my heart for whatever positive words and thoughts you may send my way.


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  • Daniel
    Hey Tanya!
    I hope you and your family have been able to recover even if it was a little bit (since any improvement still is an improvement!!!) from when you originally posted this! But know your anxieties and frustrations are valid and you couldn't have ever expected for this brick wall to hit you all at once. So know its not your fault so please never forget that. As the world seems to be caving in, find time for yourself to make you happy! Self-Care is essential for your emotional, physical, and mental health like going on walks at sunset/sunrise, drawing, learning a new skill, having a movie night with family, or even doing face masks really helps keep you occupied in a positive manner so you can have a time/space to de-stress. You got this and know you will come out of this stronger! You'll be in my thoughts and prayers <3
  • Lori
    Dear Tanya,
    Thank you for posting this! It says a lot about who you are- that you make room for gratitude even during a challenging time like this. My daily gratitude practice has been so helpful to me and I feel a kindred spirit in you. Please know that you are being thought of and lots of love is coming to you from people you have never met. Take good care of you each day!
    With Love
    Lori
  • Lori
    Dear Tanya,
    Thank you for posting this! It says a lot about who you are- that you make room for gratitude even during a challenging time like this. My daily gratitude practice has been so helpful to me and I feel a kindred spirit in you. Please know that you are being thought of and lots of love is coming to you from people you have never met. Take good care of you each day!
    With Love
    Lori
  • Lori
    Dear Tanya,
    Thank you for posting this! It says a lot about who you are- that you make room for gratitude even during a challenging time like this. My daily gratitude practice has been so helpful to me and I feel a kindred spirit in you. Please know that you are being thought of and lots of love is coming to you from people you have never met. Take good care of you each day!
    With Love
    Lori
  • Maria
    Tanya, I hope there are small moments where you feel blessed every day and that your SSI comes thru soon. Just do what you can, be gentle with yourself. You are so courageous for reaching out to ask for encouragement. I am rooting for you. Best wishes!
  • RS
    Hi Tanya, I believe love is one of the best medicines we have in our lives. So I am here, in the mitten (aka Michigan), sending you lots of love. My wish for you is this summer brings you good news, some good luck, a wish come true and a feeling of being truly loved and support just for who you are.

    All the best,
    Rachel
  • Laura
    Tanya - sending you good thoughts and wishes for joy and peace!
  • Marilyn
    Hi Tanya,
    I would love to send you an actual letter if you like. You can email me your address at write2marilyn@gmail.com. I love real letters myself and I’m so tired of electronic communication.
    If you’d rather not share, that’s okay. I understand your feeling of being overwhelmed and worried. My husband and I are retired and we are taking this virus very seriously. But I have a daughter in California who works in a high-end restaurant that keeps getting shut down because people haves tested positive for the virus. I worry about her and she worries about money. She doesn’t have health insurance because she keeps getting furloughed. I live in Ohio and I can’t just fly out to see her.

    What difficult times we’re living in. I hope your situation stabilizes soon. I think so many of us are walking around with a constant knot in our stomachs.

    Hugs,
    Marilyn F
  • Jackie in CA
    Dearest Tonya,

    I want to share these words by my mentor in life, Daisaku Ikeda. He says, “Life is a succession of different problems. But if you base yourself on faith, you will never lose. You will never retreat a single step. To have such inner resolve opens the way for victory in life and victory in society.”

    Please keep the faith in your own inner resolve and ability to break through every single obstacle and become victorious. I am praying for you and seeing you well, happy, and joyful.
  • Kate in MA
    Tanya,
    You are so brave to ask for help and support. The comments here are such great evidence that you are being held with love in the thoughts and prayers of us who are far from you, and we send that loving energy toward those who can concretely help you.

    I hope today you find some relief, and even if it is momentary, may it be enough to help you remain hopeful.

    Be kind to yourself and as loving to yourself as you are to others.
    Gentle hugs of spirit love....
    Kate
  • KM
    You are not alone. Let go of everything you think you "should" be in this situation. Create. Whereever you are, create from that place.
    You do not have to be grateful if you do not feel grateful. If you feel grateful, feel that gratitude fully, feel how it seeps into your bones and paints your experiences with the soft glow of being alive. Aliveness in the heart of your home, aliveness in the center of your spoon, aliveness in the love of your family, aliveness in the center of that pain in your body. What is this pain? What is its quality today? Is it the same as yesterday? The same as two minutes ago? Is it only in your neck and arm, or do you feel it in your belly? In your toes? Your wrist? Behind your eyes? Is it tingling? Burning? Cool? Hot? Fluid? Pulsing? Firery? All consuming? If you feel angry, feel it fully. Feel it move through you as a force. Watch it roll you like a wave. If you feel indescribable, if you feel so many things at the same time, let all those things wash you, let them meet you, let them see you, too. We see you. You are not alone. Breathe. Deeper. Again. Again. Again. Get even more sleep. Induldge in sleep. Become a hydrated sleep maiden. If you can't sleep, rest. Just rest.

    Create. Dance if dancing sparks a fire in you. Sing if singing sparks the fire within you. Write if words spark a fire from inside you. Speak if speaking expands you, stretches and excites you. Sketch if drawing lights a place within you that you may have forgotten. You don't need to show anyone what has taken you to the fire, you don't need it to be useful or beautiful. You don't need an art kit or a dance class or anything but you and what you find around your house. Truly. Write letters. Tell stories. Make tea. Allow yourself to complain. Complain more fully! Even more than that. Yes, more!

    You are not alone. You are human. You are love. I am sending love to you. I am sending my love to you not because you are lacking in love. I am sending my love to you because my love sees your love. My fire sees your fire.

    with love and aliveness
    KM

  • Elle
    Dear Tanya
    Firstly, let me reassure you - you are never alone....it may feel like it sometimes when you face personal battles, but you have an army of loving encouragers and empaths behind you. We are willing you on, and I hope that you can feel the love in each of the words people have shared here....the love is for you Tanya, all for you and it is a powerful force ;)

    When you feel at your lowest have you tried prayer? Sorry if that is not for you, it's just that I find that with the things that I cannot control or heal, I need to lift them to a higher place to find peace, and then leave them there, there is no more you have to do than that as things will find a way of working out when you trust that they will.

    You mention a neurologist and pains in your neck and arm, do you mind me asking - is it MS that you suffer with? I will pray particularly for your healing and that you get the medical help that you need. Our bodies are complex and they tell us when to rest and when to strive, let yourself rest and don't feel guilty about that, your body will thank you for it. When you feel frustrated about the things that you cannot achieve, know that I and others will be praying for you to find peace in an uplifting book or with some joyful music until you feel better again to carry on. I noticed that you said that you will never get better, I cannot imagine how that must feel for you -I'm sorry. I live with a chronic condition and some days I stay in bed and watch the day pass from under a blanket until I feel stronger, other days I sit in the sunshine and listen to the birds singing and know that life is good.... please know that your beautiful body is just as beautiful, if not more so for the challenges it is fighting from within on your behalf - you are beautiful.

    I'm so sorry that you are struggling financially - I know that can be a huge burden, I pray that you get your SSI.
    So many prayers and thoughts of hope, encouragement and love sent to you Tanya. Stay strong xx
  • Pat
    Tanya, this is hard. I've read many of the comments before and agree with folks that you are already a fighter by definition. Like others I will hold you in prayer. I hope you will find generous people in your community who may help. If you have 211 there, they have a lot of resources. Also call local churches. They get called all the time, but it is why they are there. Much love and best wishes.
  • Lior Glogau
    Hi Tanya,
    Thank you for sharing your pain with this community, it's a lot to carry on your own.
    I'll be thinking of you, sending healing thoughts, thoughts of abundance and ease, strength, and hope for your entire family.
    You are a beautiful, strong woman and you can overcome anything that stands in your way.
    No matter how long it takes, never lose sight of your vision for yourself.
    Love and light,

    Lior
  • Emily
    Dear Tanya,
    I'm so sorry that you're in so much pain and worry. Anxiety is never easy, and neither is chronic pain. My thoughts are with you and your family, and I will happily send some healing Reiki energy across the miles. Blessings on you!
  • Phoebe
    Tanya,
    I'm sorry to hear about the hard times you are experiencing. It takes strength to remain grateful during difficult times. Just know that your feelings are valid and you are not alone.
  • Jean
    Tanya,
    You are so beautiful! Your soft features and lovely smile speak of a kind heart. I'm sorry you and your family are struggling. You have physical pain on top of emotional stress does equal overwhelm! I have had a couple of joint surgeries so I know that pain zaps all of your energy. I hope you find things that work to relax you. These times of COVID 19 don't make it easy. I will think positive thoughts for your family and especially you. Be good to yourself!
  • Amy
    Hi Tanya,

    Sometimes life just doesn’t seem fair. I too am in constant pain and often feel frustrated. I understand the energy it takes physically and mentally to get through each and every day. Because I can relate, without even knowing you, I know how STRONG you are and what a FIERCE FIGHTER you are. These characteristics will get you through this rough time. You may feel alone but know that myself and others are thinking of you and admiring you from a far.
  • Lisa
    Tanya
    A hello to you today (May the 4th be with you - hee hee) from Minnesota. Thanks for reaching out and asking for encouragement. We all need it and need to know others are here to listen and lend a virtual shoulder and hug! What a strange time in our world right now and for those struggling with medical issues it must be really stressful. I find the uncertainty one of the hardest parts. I like to plan and not knowing when things will be more normal again is hard for me. Like you, I try to focus on what we DO have but that certainly doesn't mean we don't struggle with sadness and loss and wishing and frustration and despair. I am sending a big, tight hug to you and a warm ray of light to envelop your heart today.
  • Kathleen
    Hi Tanya,

    Hang in there, stay in the moment, and keep doing "the next right thing." As the sports saying goes, "life is hard by the yard but a cinch by the inch." Thinking of you!
  • Lindsey
    You’re not alone, but I can relate with that feeling and it’s truly an awful one. Your feelings are valid and on top of everything you’re going through, you are enduring physical pain. I am truly sorry.
    I do hope that financial and physical burdens are lifted from you soon. I have hope that there is something greater on the other side of all this for you.
    Thinking of you.
  • Maggy
    Tonya-
    I see so much hope in your words. It’s such an incredibly hard time for all and living with physical pain impales it that much harder. Your gratitude for your family and home and food and love is so beautiful. Hold on tight to those grateful moments. We will get through this and the other side will look different and better than before. Blessings to you and your family.
  • Maggy
    Tonya-
    I see so much hope in your words. It’s such an incredibly hard time for all and living with physical pain impales it that much harder. Your gratitude for your family and home and food and love is so beautiful. Hold on tight to those grateful moments. We will get through this and the other side will look different and better than before. Blessings to you and your family.
  • Anna K.
    I hear you Tanya.
  • Melissa Bennett
    Hi Tonya! I have to say that these have surely been trying times for many. I do believe that God only gives his toughest battles to his strongest warriors. You are already a fighter and conquerer by showing up every day thru the pain and worry. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers daily.... you are not ever alone. Be well!